If you follow Dave Ramsey, you know he says if you are not prepared, Murphy moves in. Well, we are prepared to a certain extent, but Murphy has moved in on us. New tires for the car (Thank you Lord for allowing the blow out on the freeway with all the kids in the car to happen on a clear - non-raining day), new spring for the garage door, car acting up and Chief's job getting worse and worse.
I see change ahead of us - me going back to work, new jobs, open to moving where a job may lead Chief, change for the kids... I am in a moment of complete panic right now, but yesterday I was very peaceful and calm about everything.
I think God is trying to show me how to rely on him in everything. My first reaction is not to go to God, not to pray. That is changing for me in a real way. Funny, when I go to Him first, I am calm and know everything will work out the way it is suppose to. It really isn't funny or a ironic -it is real faith and I am finally learning. Took me long enough, huh God.