Soccer Girl tried out for and made the first cut for a state soccer training program. Essentially the program (which most states have) evaluates players who try out to be in a training pool for six months. Then each training center makes decisions about who will be on the "state" team. She has passed the first hurdle.
Last year we kind of pushed her into trying out for the experience. We talked to her about seeing what possibilities are out there, playing with other kids (she has played essentially with the same group of girls for years) and just seeing another level of play. We told her if she does not make it, so what… she tried and stepped out of her comfort zone. That is in and of itself is an accomplishment. She did not make it.
This year, we asked her if she wanted to try out again. She thought about it and said yes. It was her decision. So off we went. She missed the first of three tryouts due to vacation. As we watched her two try outs, she played really well demonstrating her skills. She messed up some as they all did. But you never know what the evaluators see. We felt she was right in there skill-wise with the other girls. Overall we felt she did well, but seemed a bit tentative. She is a kid that does not step out of her comfort zone much. She didn't know many kids and was nervous. But she played well and that is all we ever expect. Then it was out of her hands.
Her name was posted about two weeks ago as having made the training pool of players. When I told her, I said, "You made ODP." The look on her face was pure shock… I wish I had a picture. She said, "I did?" Then a moment later, she smiled slightly. Then after a few seconds of thought she quietly said to herself, "Maybe I am good enough." Bless her heart.
Sweet Girl, you are good enough… even if you didn't make it. You went out there and played well. You showed your skills and that is all anyone can ever ask. I know it was not easy and you were very nervous and reluctant, despite your desire to try out.
So she starts training once a week for the next six months. She recently told me that maybe she doesn't want to do it now. That is her fear of the unknown, wavering confidence and nerves. We are trying to boost her confidence and let her know that no matter what happens in March, the training she is going to receive is an opportunity to push herself and grow not only in soccer, but many other areas of life. You will never know what will happen if you don't try.