We are in a very rough stretch with Little Man. Very rough. We had a good stretch for awhile, but the last few months have been deteriorating and the last few weeks have been bad. We are truly at a loss how to parent him through this. Calls are being made and a plan of attack is underway. We can not continue this way. I can not. He can not. It is affecting him deeply - you can see it in his eyes. It is impacting our family. I am pissed, sad, exhausted, frustrated and feel guilty most of the time. That is no way to live. I can only imagine the emotions he is feeling.
He and I said prayers last night and asked God to help him make good decisions. We talked about when he gets mad at school or home to close his eyes and ask God to help him. And this morning when I asked him what he could do when he gets mad, he said “pray to God.” We said another prayer this morning while he was eating breakfast. And guess what? Little Man had a better morning today. He only had a few minor blow ups and only punched Lizard a few times, but he was able to get himself under control. And he did not argue about the toys I said he could not take to school. He got himself in the car and was generally happy.
For some reason we were downstairs early this morning so we had extra time. I even commented to the girls – why are we all so early this morning? On the way to drop Little Man off at school, my neighbor texted me saying she was going to request that Lizard and her daughter be placed together next year and asked if that was ok? I texted her back and said I wanted to do the same thing. Well guess what? The form was due today and I had no idea… I knew it was coming up and had thought about requesting that the girls be together. But not being in the school very much now that I am working more, I am out of the loop and miss stuff. Her text came at just the right time. Since we were early this morning, I had time to go to the school, find the form, get it turned in and still got to work on time.
Ok, how can I not think God had His hands in the events of this morning? We truly went to Him in prayer last night and He worked things out to take care of our kids today… Little Man with his issues (at least for this morning) and Lizard to help foster her friendship with our neighbor. One that is very good for her.
Now, some might say I am a Jesus freak, but I tell you… I can not miss that things go better when I pray. I found my wedding ring about 1 minute after I FINALLY said a prayer… when I finally prayed about all the mud slinging that recently occurred, I felt better. Things happen and God is beside me when I pray. Pretty hard for anyone to miss that today.
The road with Little Man is going to be long, but at least for a little while today, I could see hope.